In August 2018, my husband, daughter, and I went to visit my sister-in-law and her family. We loved spending time with them, especially the kids, and had a lot of fun catching up, taking pictures, and enjoying each other’s company.
Later on, my sister-in-law posted a picture of me sitting on the couch with my niece and nephew on either side of me, cuddling close. I smiled as I remembered how much had loved being with them in that moment and how I wished we could have more moments like them.
Then something else caught my eye. My own image. I had always been hypersensitive about my weight, but this time, I couldn’t believe how huge I appeared. It was my wake up call. I vowed that I would lose the weight, once and for all.
The first 50 pounds dropped, slowly but surely, but I didn’t lose any more weight, no matter how hard I tried. My usual routine was to drop weight, plateau after losing around 50 pounds, get depressed, eat everything I could get my hands on, and gain all the weight back, plus around 30 pounds more.
This time was different. This time I actually sought wise counsel from loved ones and sought God’s Will in this situation.
I am not kidding when I say that God led me to gastric bypass surgery. I know it sounds crazy, but He really did. Previously, I’d had some major prejudices against that surgery, mostly because of the preconceived notion I had about it being an “easy way out”. I wanted to prove to myself and everyone else that I could do it myself, with no help from anyone.
Guess what? I couldn’t.
After lots of prayers, tears, and talks with my husband and other family members, I declared myself open to gastric bypass surgery. God proved it was His desire for me when He threw the doors open and I was almost immediately enrolled in a local bariatric program.
Now my journey to better health has found me well over 100 pounds lighter, with all my medical concerns (diabetes, hypertension, etc.) resolved. Even if I don’t lose another pound, I’m in the best shape I’ve been since I was a teenager. When you’re 50, that’s saying a lot!
I tell you all this not to brag about how wonderful I am but to brag on how wonderful God is. God planted the idea of the surgery into my brain. He changed my heart and mind about my pride which had previously kept me from seeking help. God walked me through the pain and shame I had been carrying around along with all my excess weight. God led me to an amazing care team to get me through the process. God was with me through everything.
He still is.
If He cared that much about my physical body that will only be here on this Earth for a limited time, how much more does He care about my soul, the eternal part of me?
God loves all of us with en everlasting love. Nothing is beyond His notice. No detail is too small for His attention. We are His beloved.
If you don’t know Him, you are missing out on the most incredible relationship you will ever have. He does more than save us from an eternity in Hell when we die. He saves us from ourselves. Right now.
If you want to talk to me about God’s desire to connect with you, please contact me. I would love to share my Savior with you.